Yesterday I was trawling through peoples blog posts and found one by a good twitter friend of mine about the wait before beginning training. And it just really resonated with me. This waiting thing is hard.
I had my BAP at the end of April and so received the news about my recommendation on May 8th. Since then I’ve been on an interview and accepted my place for Theological College and now I’m just waiting. My DDO has been busy with ordinations, and so I don’t think my paperwork has been the top of her list! (and rightly so!) In a way I just can’t believe that is all real. That in a matter of 13 weeks I will be unpacking my stuff at Westcott and beginning my life as an ordinand. It also feels a bit strange because technically I class as an ordinand, but in my head I need to start college before I officially count.
In a weird way its like waiting for a letter from Hogwarts,telling me that I am officially a wizard. I’m expecting to get this big letter in the post with a large list of all the weird and wonderful things I will need for college. Although I expect that shopping for a cassock will be a lot less interesting then buying a wand.
This week has been especially weird with all of the ordinations that have been happening. Its been like a constant reminder of what will happen with me in a few years. I went back to the parish where I was Pastoral Assistant (I haven’t been back since I went to BAP) and I had so many questions about what was happening. One of the most common responses I got was ‘Oh so you are defiantly going for it then!’ I laughed and said that it wasn’t me who was thinking it over, but the Church! There were also a few people who said “Well it will be you next!” After watching the Curate Fr Ben get ordained. It was all just a bit scary at times, but good to know that there is a church community who are looking out for me.
Talking to several of my friends who are also waiting to start Theological College in September I know that I’m not alone. One of my close friends even managed to sum up both our feelings into a Christological analogy. “You know how Jesus is both fully divine and fully human, well I am both fully petrified and fully excited.” A perfect way of summing it up if you ask me!
In a way I am so thankful for the summer to have some family time, and get everything sorted before entering into Theological College. But in another way this summer seems like it is going so slowly!
I’m sure 13 weeks will pass in no time!
Peace and joy.